It is often said that someone who keeps a diary is not a happy person. Happy people don't need to pen their misgivings, their unworthiness or their unspoken words down. They live each day, keeping every second in their head because it is easy.
Compare this to someone who keeps a diary. Someone who always have something to write down, because most of the time, that diary is the one thing that sees the bad and the ugly.

You can judge me as you see fit; it is inevitable, an unstoppable facet of human nature. In the same, cruel way, I will judge you the way you judge me.

A little bit about me - I'm eighteen, cohabiting with my boyfriend, and I adore the people who care about me.

A wild teen, a partygirl - I've been there and lived through it. Now at 18, I'm living the life of a 25.
And you know what? Partying, chugging down shots - I don't miss any of it. Sure, sometimes I let my hair down, but what I love most is cuddling in bed in my PJs with the love of my life.

This is getting long - so I'll cut it. You can look at me through somebody else' eyes, but you'll always be doing that. Living without your own. I'm not looking for friends anyway, so I actually don't really need you to like me. I have met enough people to know that true friends, like true love, are just like ghosts. Everyone talks about it, but few have actually experienced it.

Hello there, I'm Mavis, and I'm actually not a bitch.



 

I have moved to ifyouseekbunny.lj ^^

So many things I have to say, yet it's so hard finding words that fit.

Mother's Day was barely over, yet what I'm giving you is hardly pleasant. I can remember all the times you cradled my head and said it's all right, the times you called twenty times a day to make sure I'm fine, the times I get sick and you broil soup for 8 hours and make Dad bring it over for me.

I wish... I can repay you for all the things you've done for me. Half would be more than enough for me - I won't be that foolish to ask for everything.

How do you say 'I'm sorry' to the best mom in the world?

Sometimes I wonder what really goes on in my head.

I've always imagined the expression "I could practically see the clogs in her brain turning". How cool would that be? Instead of just some boring old grey mush... hmm. But if we had gears for brains mine would be turning backwards. It's like in my mind, I'm going SHITSHITSHIT NEED TO GET WEB D  DONE NOW but my hands are playing Bejeweled on Facebook on their own. And apparently they're not paying much attention cos I'm STILL playing.

Missing school tmr because doctor sent me to get a chest X-ray done... But I still have to go to school to do radio. Sucks to be me.
CAN EDUCATION JUST END HERE PUHLEAZEEEEE. ):

I want to get a new livejournal. It's confusing keeping both a blogspot and a lj but i don't know mmm...

FUCK FARLEY JUST BEAT MY HIGH SCORE IMMA GO GET HIM NOW BYE
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I wish I can be everything I want to be. How nice would it be to be a butterfly flitting from one flower to another, freedom in my veins, sweetness down my throat. How nice would it be to be the thunderbolt during a storm, to be the one thing that lights up the sea of darkness. How nice would it be to be the warm caress of wind across a child's cheek, catching his fallen eyelash as he makes a wish?

(lefashion)
 

Brought Sushi to the doctor again today.
Apparently some muthaf of an insect bit her and she kept biting the bite.
So her tail is now infected.
Doc shaved off her tail and made her wear an E Collar
I feel so helpless. I mean when your daughter, your son or your elderly grams is sick you know how they feel cause they can articulate it right?
When it's your dog feeling that way... how do you tell her not to scratch that, not to bite that because it would just hurt her more?

There is no way to make sure that she's feeling all right, and that she understands your actions. She whimpered when I put medicine on her tail.
Heart.Ache.

Anyway later we're heading out for some steamboat dinner, and then we have to drop by Nat's bday. Have tons of work to do plus school tomorrow from 9-6. FUCKING KILL ME PUHLEAZE.

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Been ages since I posted anything here. Edited my top entry... want to delete past entries but don't know how to mass delete.


Why does LJ feels so comfortable to blog on? I mean on Blogspot I always feel... kinda restricted. Like I get writer's block, I go all uneasy and it shows. In LJ... it just feels easier to spill.

Ok this is retarded I'm like blogging about my Bandung trip on Blogspot and I'm writing shit here.
Haha. Maybe a proper post soon.

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I know I haven't been entertaining or funny for a while... I WAS BZ.
Bz going back to blogspot (ok that took only today) and my new obsession...
which is posted on flymoniker.

 

I am so angry.
Like on the outside, i'm trying to keep my cool but on the inside i'm bubbling like lava.
So many things have been making me mad... Most of them school related.
Like when I first wanted to go poly, I naively thought that i'll be away from all the hypocrisies and poseurs.
BUT GUESS WHAT
Poly has like 10times the juice compared to secondary school, BUT it's worse because no matter how much you hated the guts of an individual he or she would not be able to do stuff detrimental to your grades.
BUT GUESS WHAT
In poly, people can. And they do.
I wish I could go "Fuck em," like in secondary school but I can't cos I want to go uni I want to go overseas to journalize I want to make lots of money I want to buy Coach bags for my mom.

I so cannot stand it when some of them treat me like retards... at least in RV I knew they were smarter, so I felt justified right?
But HEH-LOW we're in the same bloody class and as bimbotic as I appear I come from a better school then most of you.
If I went to school as often as you guys do, my grades wouldn't be so bad.
Hell, I'm getting the same grades as most of you.

So, shut the hell up.

My new obsession - Lipstick Jungle


Ok not new. But latest.



But who cares about the other two people it's Victory Ford I'm interested in. Or Lindsay Price, if you prefer. She brings the show alive and
Reese Witherspoon is not Cute As A Button, she is! By the way this is my favourite hairdo she sported in the show. So that night, two weeks ago after watching LJ (LOL THERE'S SO MANY LJs) I had a sudden urge to cut bangs again right there and then.




Then I remembered how high maintenance bangs were and the whole prickly pokey eyeballs feeling. But I'm still undecided I took out my extensions yesterday while doing Writ Com and I can do the whole Herbal Essences "Ohhh" thing again but my hair looks bah now. If I weren't laden with deadlines I would have gotten bangs last weekend with Kokohead chelle.



LOOK AT HER CLOTHES I prefer them to SATC's please. She's so pretty and cutesy and chi-chi. I LOVE HER CLOTHES AND HER OMG




See what I mean? Actually there was this top she wore in the first few episodes that left the deepest impression on me it was white and structured with a REALLY REALLY COOL COLLAR and it was sizzling. I love Lindsay Price!
WHY ISN'T THE VIDEO APPEARING?? Omg you guys you gotta check out the trailer if you can't be bothered to watch the whole show in which case you're a jackass anyway BUT pictures can't depict how buttoncute she really is.

GO WATCH. NOW.

Top Ten List Of Books



1. HARRY POTTER series
J.K.Rowling

The BEST I swear. She's not richer than the Queen of England for nothing. I've reread each book more than 10times.



2. Lipstick Jungle
Candace Bushnell

I watched the reel version before getting the book. From the Sex And The City writer. Fantastic crafting of the story which focuses on three high flying career women in NYC.




3. The Shape Of My Heart
Tiffanie Bartolo

I never expected this book to be that kind of 'BOOM' book that makes you feel what the author wants you to feel so so deep. I just picked it up cause the cover looked pretty but it got the oommph. If you read this and don't get it, don't love anyone because you'll fuck everyone up.



4. Nineteen Minutes/ The Pact
Jodie Picoult

I've got to say, I love JP's books. Her writing is awesome and the issues she chooses are also those that her readers can relate to. I've read so many... but these two are my favourites. It's a tie! If you haven't read any of her books, you're missing out. A lot.




5. Anybody Out There
Marian Keyes

I've read almost ALL of her books... those i haven't are either the latest or her autobiographies.
She's so consistent and she's always reinventing herself with fresh writing all the time. Her Irish wit and sarcasm is ohmygod fantastic but some people can't get her humor. I think maybe there's a reason why Gayboy and I can act out the whole Scary Movie series. I like this the most out of the rest cause it's so sad and romantic while being hilarious at the same time.



6. For One More Day
Mitch Albom

HE IS ONE OF THE BEST WRITERS NOW IF YOU HAVEN'T READ THIS PLEASE CRAWL UNDER A STONE AND HIDE YOURSELF.



7. Spellbound
Jane Green

I borrowed this from a library like two years ago but I found it despite not remembering the author and the title. Her depth in writing is comparable to Tiffanie Bartolo.



8. Shopaholic & Baby
Sophie Kinsella

AHHA I can't help it i'm a DB (dumb blonde) at heart. I've almost all her books already... and those I don't own are read already too. HARDCORE NOT



9. The A-list
Zoey Dean

I can't seem to find this book and its sequels anywhere... In my opinion it's better than Gossip Girl. Anyone knows where to get them?




10. Just Another Kid
Torey Hayden

See I read serious books too. Torey Hayden used to be a teacher for special  children... but I guess she probably retired and started writing about her experiences with them. It's so heartbreaking though so I don't really like to reread it. Uses too much Kleenex.

Go on, be a nerd like me now too.

Hello jellos!
I know i know... i'm so boring nowadays.
But that's all going to change soon!!
I have loads of pictures to upload which i WILL, soon.
But I just remembered I have a Social Psychology journal to hand in tmr which constitutes to 30% of my final grade.
And no, I do not want a 1 for my GPA.
So so so please be understanding!

Haha but I got so bored with my stupid gender girlboywhatnot readings so i'm going dally here abit.
Went home for the weekend and so veh veh happy!!!
Got to see Momo and Dada and Branny and SUSUXIAOPEEPEE and of course my non-existent sister who woke us up today to go to farmart.
I AM HAPPY COS I ATE CRAYFISHYS AND BIGJUICYPRAWNS AND CRABBIES AND STINGRAYS AND WINGYS!!!
It was a extremely fruitful day.
After farmart we went grocery shopping
And Momo bought Qt a plasma telly and dvd player!!
She also gave me baby rose shower gel, (the family member of the EuYangSan or some fuck Ginseng shower gel; i HATED it cos i HATE ginseng. Stupid ginseng.) a carton of bird's nest, more CORE skin care products to bring over to Qt's place! Woohoo!
I feel so cherished now haha.
I think it's sad that I don't get to see my parents as much as I love them.

Speaking of relations, I just had to blog about this.
Of my childhood memories, what stood out the most was playing, hanging out with my cousins, them bullying me, me crying and getting them into trouble, me eating wang wang, and of course, the very strong bond we share.

I know, that for the past 8 months, I have disappointed you guys frequently.
Missing gatherings, pangsehing you guys, and often bringing along a guy when we are having a girl session.
I know, okay?
The guilt is so bad... because I have no idea how to rectify this.
I love you guys so much... but I love Qt too.
I know what I've been doing hurts, disappoints and probably piss you guys off.
But I want yall to know what we have is not so simple.
Because what we have, is blood.

I can only depend on our strength of our bond, the trust of our blood to not lose you guys because I know
that in any case, you guys will not leave me behind.
Because we're family.
Ohana.
And ohana means no one gets left behind.

I will never leave you guys behind.

x

Eight months on...
Forever and ever, babe.

x

I was preparing my presentation for an assessed speech tomorrow but I kind of freaked out so I took a little break.
Since I was on Youtube, I went, hey why not? Let's see how many more idiots have commented on my old videos (the latest at least 1yr back k)
HAHAHA WINDFALL MAN
I have losers people fighting about racism on one. It was 4 pages long (the cyberwar), consisted of many many profanities and the usual shallow spits.

It was a video on the song Firefly. By ATeens.




Not funny meh?? I laughed my ass off. I want to be able to say thank yous to those nice normal people BUT
I honestly do not see the link at all. Hence I deemed it hilarious.

And of course we have the typical fucktards youtubians who go
1. Omg what lousy editing
2.WTFFF
3. Slut much? (Note her username was AnAsianChica or something)
4. Pretty but so retard.. why waste your life away?
5. Ugly shit mofo


.... ... ...

Still not funny meh?
You're a tough nut to crack.

And GUESS WHAT.
Out of curiosity - much like that when your friend looks at your Math paper grade and goes " Wah so stupid" don't tell me you won't snatch his paper and see if he's smarter - I clicked on a few random ones, especially the most incriminating ones.

GUESS WHAT X 2
They are just registered users.
With nothing in their account. No videos, no friends, no subs...
SO WHAT GIVES THEM THE RIGHT TO COMMENT ON MY VIDEO EDITING!!!!!!!!!
It's like walking around saying to people on the street "Hey you're fugly" while wearing a paper bag.

NONSENSICAL RIGHT?!!?!?
And at that time I was only 15...  what a harsh world.

Of course there were nice comments lah... in fact more than those ridiculous ones.
I'm not a Chucky lor.
I'm not trying to show off but i do think that after the whole xiaxue/dawn debacle honesty is really a blogger's most precious virtue.
Some said I was pretty, some said I was cute, some defended. I didn't bother to click on their profile though, so maybe they're weirdos too.
MAYBE LA K. ALSO MAYBE THEY'RE PERFECTLY NORMAL PEOPLE.

Oh and on one video made early 2006, during a group project we made a video. It was just some dumbshit of us laughing our heads off and singing.
Too bad we chose the wrong song.
We sang the "One dollar, one dollar, only one dollar" tissue song
Insensitive? Maybe it was but at that time it didn't seem so.
Well, we got plenty of bullshit from people who go I HOPE YOUR KIDS NEXT TIME HAVE TO SELL TISSUE SO YOU CAN'T LAUGH AT THEM ANYMORE

WELL FUCK YOU i know your kids are whores.

For you bloody information, the video was titled Retards or Crazy or something so it obviously means it's not serious right?
I don't know, many weird people's head think in curly wurly shapes.
 AND I HAVE TO MENTION THAT I ALWAYS BUY TISSUE FROM THEM.

I give them TWO BUCKS and only take ONE packet of tissue (so as to not anger them - you know how old people can get).
HOW MANY SINGAPOREANS DO THAT YOU TELL ME?
It's not like I need the tissue please... I'm a super tissue provider and I carry lots of tissue with me wherever I go.

I bet the people who talk so much don't even buy tissue lor.

KL PHOTOS!!!!!!



super image heavy thanks.

Yes I know i'm damn slow.
But finally ALL the kl photos have been edited!!!
So a photolog should be up soon...ish.
Cos Mych just bought a brand new Harry Potter 7 (We lost the first copy) from Kinokuniya
SO HELL YEAH I'M GONNA READ IT FOR TEN TIMES AGAIN
Mwahhaha. Okay promise will update again real soon.
HUGE photolog.

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